my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
taking a break from trigonometry. well not that i've been practicing it, jes remembering and copying the countless formulas [ughh]. relishing double choc coated tim tams and i'm happy to say that i cooked my own lunch today! mee goreng okay. well ya despite the fact it's instant [sigh] food, i decided to add half boiled eggs to my lunch. but it turned out hard boiled because the thing that i have to make half boiled eggs wasn't working too well. so i mashed the hard boiled eggs up, and threw away one yolk. don't really like egg yolks much. yeah so my mee goreng was mixed up with mashed egg white and yolk. sounds icky i know, but it tasted kwite good. counting that i was kinda hungry. ah well, i needa stop using the microwave oven to cook. seems like it's the only thing i know how to use in the kitchen. but then i hate cooking, because of all the oil that gets around, and then you'll have to bathe to get the oil off. worse still, you'll have to clean the whole kitchen cuz of all the oil that flies around. whatever, it's evident that im not cut out for cooking. i love instant food :)
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